after some time....

~wednesday, june 02 '04 11:52 am

listening to: [Kuon] memory of lightwaves
smelling: pomelo juice
mood: thoughtful

went all the way to school yesterday to get "an empty piece of paper", i'm feeling it- i'm getting older, that "empty piece of paper" ~ my 3rd year regform, have to fill all of the slots up with my program electives and it's now up to me to decide what time all of my classes will be....

somehow, getting older ain't what i thought it would be when i was younger~ then it was the idea of getting your own money and being free to do anything you want. anything at all. now, it's responsibility and the consequences of your actions.

hah! the latter statement would probably be the explanation why i havent been grounded since high-school~ my rents more or less let me go out everytime i want to and to hang out with anyone i want to despite them not approving of some of my frieds.

well, sum it up, i've had a pretty rad summer vacation :J thanks to all you dudes who made it worthwhile~ coz its the last one i'll be having :) feels pretty strange to say that...


thoughts on yesterday:

hanging out with nina and rom (and gabby!) was fun~ how could it be anything but that? :J hadn't realized how much i missed em ;d i'll be hanging out there more often i hope :J

commuting has been made easier with the LRT :) so now, it's just an LRT-MRT-bus-and-a-two-jeepney-ride from ateneo to alabang. all that road covered for only 54 bucks~

havent commuted in a while, i enjoy commuting...especially by myself...being immersed in a crowd full of people you don't know, people you'll probably never see again either. eerily, it made me wonder what was going thru their minds, did they realize that this country that we lived in was an impovrished one? or did their eyes merely glaze over the blurring scenery of gray, dirt-bleached walls. not seeing it as it really was. do most people live like that here? i wonder....to most perhaps it has become a necessity...

seeing an elderly woman, homeless on the sidewalk...where was her family? why is she here? like a guardian standing obselete, her form small and withheld, guarding the entrance to the station.

seeing an old man, wearied by age and poverty, walking....each footstep a struggle, will he make it to where he's going? does he know where he's going?

i cannot meet their gazes....my inability to help them makes me weep inside and brings tears to my eyes....afterall, what can i do? am i not one of those people with glazed eyes of indifference?


++++ the vagrant

revival of the blog layout

~sunday, april 10 '04 : pm

listening to: [GACKT] mirror
smelling: sinigang
mood: constructive

it's summer and i don't have summer classes....WOO-HOO!!!! the time i have available is almost too good to be true~ that i can draw and write and read to my heart's content~ bliss...now i just need money....hahahahahaha

decided to revive this layout because, i play favorites among my things~ so you guys will probably see this layout for as long as i live or until i come up with a new favorite (which ever comes first...) nyaharharhar ;J though if i were you, i wouldn't mind because gackt is on the layout~ which means yummy hot man to drool over....

++++ the vagrant

ps. david beckham is an elf...that oh so damnably hot man....